MIA.

I know I've disappeared for about three weeks maybe? But well.. too many things happened within these three weeks, I'm just so so soooo tired. 

On 28/10, Monday 2 weeks ago, one fire sprinkler went crazy in the building where my apartment's at. I have no idea how was it a chain reaction or whatever, it caused ALL the fire sprinklers directly under that unit to be activated and yeap, you may have guessed it, my apartment was located directly 2 floors below that apartment. So, the apartment was soaking wet. Or should I say its like a flood? Idk how to describe it any more. On that day itself, my housemate, Trang and I were given a choice to stay in a hotel or to stay in that building until the repair work is done, which they told us was approximately 3 days. We chose to stay in  the building near our apartment so they gave us a studio room (a studio room is a room for 1 person, so 1 single bed, 1 small table, 1 chair). I slept on the floor but took the table and Trang slept on the bed. This continued for 2 weeks instead of the promised 3 days. And! We have to pay $100 everyday for that tiny studio. They said that we'll get back the money but there is no proof! Until today, its $1500 already. Imagine paying that for damages that is not my fault!

Yesterday, after our exams, Trang called and asked the agent about the progress of the apartment and know what, we were chased out of the studio room because the agent received a call from the tenant saying that he wants to move in asap so we cannot live there any longer. We had to move our things from this room to another studio located 2 buildings away. Fml seriously. Lack of sleep, so tired, hungry and we have to move all these shits.

And now they are telling us that our apartment will be ready this week. We don't even want to believe what they are saying. We've believed them so many times and got disappointed one day after the other. Now, we're just hoping that everything will be back to normal before I go back to Malaysia. 

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Exam stress. Final exam week and I don't even have a proper study table. Take that! And I don't have a kitchen, I can't even cook my food, have to go out to tabao everyday. I really feel so sad for myself sometimes. The amount of junk I am feeding myself. We don't have internet in the apartment, we have to go to school or the state library everyday. I'm surviving on less than 500mb of data for a month dude, how pro is that?! And studying just doesn't get better because Trang and I are just distracting each other. Its true that we got closer, which is a good thing but then again, we are just demotivating each other in a way or another. 

Honestly, at times like this, I'm so jealous of Trang. Her boyfriend will either tabao outside or cook himself and come all the way just to pass the food to her. When she needs his help, he comes straight away. When she lost her job, he was there as well. She's lucky, despite having to go through all these shits, she has someone to talk to. Me, don't say boyfriend lah, friends, some don't even want to listen, some don't even care because everyone's having their exams right now, I don't want to annoy them and nobody has time to listen to crap like this. My parents nag me even more commenting on things I should or should not do - I know it is out of love but I am not a kid any more, ok? In the end, people think I'm just a complainer because I had to take it all out in Twitter.

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And things back home doesn't seem that good either. My uncle from the USA flew back few days ago and my uncle in Australia is flying back again next Monday. And I will be leaving next Sunday. Everyone is going home. Everyone needs to be home. Because the doctor said... we should be ready.

Yesterday evening, there was so many things on my mind I couldn't even prepare for my next paper which is tomorrow. I know I shouldn't be like this but the amount of stress! Its just crazy you know? I'm so sick of all these. I want to believe that everything happens for a reason but isn't this just..... too much? 

I don't know what to do any more. I look old, I look sick, I look like I'm crashing any moment now. I just... can't be bothered any more. Even for my final exams - I don't care any more. As long as I don't fail that's all. *sigh* The things in life....