Maths.

of all subjects, I hate maths.

Maths' existence is to kill people like me.

A person who's not good in numbers.

too bad maths can't be memorized!
I HATE YOU MATHS!

Especially Differentiation and Integration!

jammed.

I should thank myself for the brain malfunction this morning.

Biology was suppose to be the easiest because you just have to memorize it and there, you have all the answers. I was suppose to score! What happened to me this morning? #FML

Mr. Alfred - "Go and bang wall and die."

Mr. Wong - "Klang river very near."

positive side, 1 more freaking subject.

Maths on Monday.

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I'm so lost.

sometimes, I just feel like giving up.

There's no point going through all this anyways.

farney ah!

It's weird why I'm always online and blogging while I am having my exams.

Well, that's simply because I feel sleepy and I need to do something to recharge myself and obviously sleeping is not a good idea because.. for those who knows me, when I sleep, I don't get up easily! xD That is, if I am at home. If I'm outside, waking me up was never a problem! haha!

Today was kind of a failure because instead of spending 3 hours on Biology, I spent 3 hours on the newspaper! :O Target, finish the whole syllabus in 1.5 hours. After all, this is already a second round, so I guess it shouldn't take too long.

The photo above, is a photo of what my sister have been up to lately. Haha! Its St John's dedication. Your friend will be given 3 of these based on his/her initials for RM 1 :) If there's extra, be sure for a surprise, my dear friends! :DD

Alright, should go back to biology now! :)

Can't wait for the family trip after trials :D

Depressed!

Never! 

I say NEVER! 

Never once in my 12 years of academic life hope for only a pass (core subjects la I mean) until today! #FML

This is depressing! :(

*facepalm*

mei you lian jian ren!

Studied so many freaking hours and only slept for 3.5 hours and I feel like I'm sitting for a foreign language paper!

I want to crap and fill in all the blanks but hell, I don't even know what to crap about! This is terrible. Seriously terrible.

I told my mum and got some nagging. Positive nagging - "Haiya! Then you should have watched TV all night instead of studying mah!"

Yeap, I should have done something else since almost everything that I revised yesterday and today didn't come out. PET scan, Photocopy machine, apa pun takda! Come out X-ray pulak! -____- #mournforphysics

Because I didn't know how to do the paper, I left many blanks and progressed super fast. Two Physics genius from my class sat beside me and they didn't know that I skipped a lot of questions, they saw me answering the 3rd paper in the 1.5hour slot and they panicked! GET THAT! I MADE THE GENIUS STUDENTS STRESSED! XD They thought they were slow, only to realize that I left many blanks. Haha!

Anyways, I'll be lucky if I even get a C. andddddd... I studied.. For an A!! 

SUAN LE BA! 10% fei liao.

Latest tweet on Twitter:

"shall mourn over my physics now. Wth. I should have watched TV and online all night. Whatever I studied yesterday didnt come out also -.-"

One day off! Shall make use of the extra 24 hours and study bio properly! I don't want to cry over Biology!

Goodbye, my dear A for Physics! #dang

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. - Ralph Waldo Emerson"

1 down..

Done with Chemistry!

(For this month, I mean xD)

I have no comment about how I did the paper. Shall not jinx it! :X

3 more subjects to go! :D

Physics smhycis tomorrow! I'll be alright! My sleepless nights will not go to waste! :D

When this happens..

My exams were always this way. Dang.
btw, ignore the F word.

on this day in 2010, I wrote this on Facebook:

"SPM, 'faster come, faster go', thanks to SPM, I feel guilty doing anything else besides studying"

And now, I feel exactly the same.

The nearer I am to my exams, the more I don't feel like studying. :(

Ms. Param e-mailed me. She told me to try my best to ACE THIS TRIAL EXAMS.

I wish I was confident enough to tell her, "Teacher, no worries, I know I can Ace this".

2 more days to the SAM trials.

After the 26th, I'm gonna give myself a day (or maybe 2 days) of holidays xD

Now, back to the books!

daily fusion.

Mid Autumn festival on Monday.

Frankly, I didn't even know it was already zhong qiu jie on Monday. Until one of my friends asked me whether I'm gonna play with the latterns and candles instead of studying xD damn #fail

So in the end, my mid autumn festival this year was a very boring one. I spent it with the books since my sister went for her tuition and the two cousin brothers are sick. The other cousins are too far away to be contacted. saddening xD

Jing Yuan definitely had a great time playing with the candles xD I wish I lived near her!

Thank you Jing Yuan :)

We'll get the A+! :DD

btw, have you guys seen mooncakes as small as this one?

Pardon me if you have because I've never seen such mini sized mooncakes! xD

For the rest of the days, I was glued to my table, studying like no tomorrow. I kept studying and studying and studying. I finished the entire syllabus (with understanding) and then when I attempted the past year questions, I feel like strangling myself! Its really pissing when you've read everything and then don't know how to answer the questions. Gah!

I finished 60% of Chemistry this week. The last practical test.*phew!* Got 49/52 marks. Sounds very good but when it is converted to the internal assessment percentage, its actually quite bad.

Biology Issue Investigation, I got a handsome full marks! :D Writing that report until 4am is the morning was worth it! haha!

Physics, currently a B+. I hope I can pull up the grades soon :/

Maths, currently the worst subject, also a B+. Finished all the tests this week. Thank goodness. I'm sick of studying for Matrices!

Research Project, my proudest subject ever! hahaha! 99 marks! xD but that's not the final result yet. There's one more paper to go. I hope I can still get an A+ :)

I used 60% of my time tidying up my notes and to sort out every single paper that I've accumulated since January. Binded all the notes and past year questions and I feel so so good! At least everything is neatly arranged now :)

and these are only 60% of the notes. There's loads more to come!

Btw, anybody knows anybody who's gonna do SAM next year? Please ask them if they'll be interested to buy my books! See how neat they are?! You won't even need to sort anything because I've done that for you! xD The books are definitely brand-new-looking and its wrapped! so please please please take them away when I finish SAM! xD

Lastly, my IELTS results.

I just got them today! :) I fulfilled the requirement! The highest score is 9.0 for each section and the overall band - highest - is 9.0 too. So yea, 7.5/9.0. I rank between "Good User" and "Very Good User" xD Hahaha! Liao le yi zhuang xin shi! :D

Puan Mahani said, "do your very best now because you won't want to look back at yourself in the future and tell yourself that you could do better"

"SAM will decide for you your future career path. Your 12 years of studying will end up to this final exam"

This sentence was craved in my head.. What do I really want to be in the future? I love studying science but science students don't really have a bright future ($ wise) unless I'm gonna be a doctor/dentist/pharmacist/engineer and I'm not interested in any of those... *sigh* Nehmind, shall think about that after my trials!

3 more days till my trials!

Shall give it my best! :)

counting down

counting down the days until the trials exam is worst than counting down for SPM!

I have been sitting in front of my desk, studying for the whole afternoon for tomorrow's Maths Directed Investigation and after 5 hours, I only finished 6 or 7 questions. #failtothemax

My mid-semester results are out and... and.. and.. I think I have the worst results among all my friends. #failagain Almost everyone have straight As and I only have 2 As. Its not that I want to compare but SAM is going to end and if my ATAR is not a competitive ATAR, I'm doomed.

Should go back to the books now. 4 days of trial exam is worst than a month of SPM. I would rather sit for those 10 subjects again! :(

Guardian Angel.

I bet everyone heard of the Guardian Angel thingy. Where you will be assigned to be the guardian of a person (the mortal) and that you will be a mortal of a person as well!

The student council decided to hold this activity and I gladly joined it. Because I feel that this is a really meaningful program :)

And so, I'll talk about my mortal first.

She's a sweet girl from G8, her name is Nicole Joann :)

Thanks to this program, I've become quite a stalker xD I stalked her profile almost everyday! haha!

And I found these! x)

That's the chocolate I gave her on Tuesday :) 

and this was from Wednesday.

And after that, I think she knew I added her, she stopped posting about it xD

This was Thursday

and for today, the last day of the program :)

It feels great to know that somebody is happy because of the little things you did for them :)

Uzma told me she saw Nicole holding Wednesday's gifts and smiling! Awwwww.. That made me feel so good for the rest of the day! xD

Me and Nicole :)

I'm glad to have made her smile for the past few days :)

Keep in touch yo! :)

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Okay, and now for my guardian angel.

*change of tone from a happy tone to a super pissed tone*

DON'T LET ME SEE THAT WHOLE GANG OF PEOPLE IN TAYLOR'S!

Hooligans/fools/buffoons/idiots/retards/childish/immature/没风度 and all other words that describe USELESS People!

I have never been that pissed for a long long time!

I was pissed till the extent that I wanted to say "F*cktards!" and show the middle finger which is a super super super rude and disrespectful behaviour. But I was angry until that extent! I don't even know why such bastards existed!

Thank you for ruining the whole game for me, you bunch of good-for-nothing people.

I'm so jelly (jealous) of my friends who got super nice guardian angels!

Jing Yuan even received a Starbucks tumbler worth around 50 bucks from her guardian angel! so so sweet! (he doesn't even know her! lol!)

All I received was a stupid prank. Bastards.

Never mind, I shall forget about those buffoons and be happy :P

The Worst

The worst English Test I've ever sat!

I really put a lot of effort in this test, the results, be good please? :P

The books I borrowed from Taylor's Library.

The first two are.. erm.. *coughs* photo*coughs*copied.

I even searched the net and did further reading and exercises.

And now, I'm done with IELTS 

(Don't fail please! Fail then I'll have to do it all over again! x__x)

I'll get my results on the 15th of this month.

Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best :)

A big thank you to all my friends who helped me throughout my prep for IELTS :DD

and btw, I just received Monash University's Conditional Offer letter :)

awesome-ness :D

counting down to trials: 16 days!