Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Sometimes.

Sometimes, reading this kind of stuff makes you feel that you're so blessed. Blessed that it is not you who have to face all this.

I was walking around in a supermarket when i saw a cashier hand this little boy his money back, the boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll.'' The little boy turned to the old woman next to him, ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?'' She replied, ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.'' Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. 

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.' I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this, 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.'' My heart nearly stopped. 

The little boy looked up at me and said, 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself. He was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she didn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

 I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll!'' OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said, 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!' Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.'' 'My mommy loves white roses.' 

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state of mind from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? 

Two days after this encounter with the little boy I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. 

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. 

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine, and in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. 

 * * *

On the other hand...

Sometimes, academic results may not be everything..
You might be super smart, but even if you're not, it doesn't matter..

A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." 

With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands: Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with bob and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and bob said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. bob taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so bob can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children. Your daughter, Jessy... PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home...." 

Ahhahahahahaha! #epic! xD

Sometimes, I really feel that parents should be satisfied with their child's academic results. I know I am not in the right to say anything because I am not a parent and I don't know how it feels. But still, I really believe that having kids that have a great personality and bad grades is better than kids who do not behave properly and, have bad results. Zhi zu ba..

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

No-kay

That feeling when I got back my physics paper was -- "It wasn't as bad as I expect it to be!" Quite happy about it, as least I passed. (>50 to pass). I got a C. Its still acceptable since I seriously don't know how to do the paper. :) So all I can do is to work harder for the finals :)

I got back my chemistry paper as well. For this paper, I was freaking disappointed. I have no idea why it turned out this way! I expected a 70+ (at least) and what happened? I got another C! And a C that is lower than Physics! My goodness. When I checked the paper again I realized that whatever I wrote in Paper 1 do not even make sense. I have no idea what was I writing. I lost 30 marks there. x( Luckily the overall internal assessment is still an A- or I'll seriously cry myself to sleep.

I received my Maths Class Test 4 today. 38/40 - Wow! I got a shock myself. Haha! I know I shouldn't be greedy but if it wasn't because of my silly mistakes (forgot to write RM and one other thing) I would have got full marks. But then again, my highest mark in Maths so far :)

* * *

I was reading a blog just now. I know I shouldn't be judging people but.. something that she wrote stopped me right at that sentence. What happened to you? The girl that I know won't say things like that because she knows it will hurt others. The girl I know won't boast about something like that because she knows different people thinks differently. The girl I know will never break her promise because she knows how it feels to be betrayed. What happened to you..? :(

Monday, September 26, 2011

Post-trials :D

After counting down and feeling like dying for physics and biology, the trials is finally over! :DDD

I spent 9 hours yesterday working on my formula sheet while studying for maths.
This is how my formula sheet looks like. Its only page 1. we can have a maximum of 4 pages of anything we like to write and they're all as packed as this! xD
and thank goodness today's maths was not as bad as I thought it would be! :DD
If I loved maths a lil bit more, I would have been able to answer all the questions in the paper. So what if I left a few blanks, I really feel like I've did my best :)

Right after maths ended, all the SAM students were walking around TCSJ thinking of where to go next. Haha! Went with the G4s to watch Abduction!
I quite like the movie. The storyline was ok :)
In my eyes, Taylor Lautner have always been a werewolf and suddenly he became all spy-ish and stuff. Wow. Major difference.


I have to say, this girl is quite pretty. But, I don't like her eyebrows! Lol!

Right after watching Abduction, we realized that Nasi Lemak 2.0 starts in another 10 minutes! And we, the crazy people, lined up to buy the tickets and entered the cinema again! lol!

For Nasi Lemak 2.0, the guy that saved the boy at the beginning of the show reminds me of someone I know. Actually, its more like someone I dislike. Somehow, when the guy was talking, I imagine that person I know talking and I couldn't stop laughing hysterically. XD Seriously, I laughed so hard I had a stomach ache. lol!

And.. I don't really like this show. The storyline is so boring. I mean the show is funny but there's no main point. Sorry, NasiLemak fans!

Lastly, a group photo of G4s! :)

We shall have more gatherings! :DD

and.. its the day I finish my trials and I've already finish this storybook! xD
one word -- AWESOME!
Ok, so this book is written is quite a weird way but somehow I can relate to that (Not the horny part la!!). So its quite worth the time. After all, this should be my first chinese book in 2 or 3 years. I should be proud xD
There're so many quotes from that book that I find meaningful! hahaha!
The first is about "what ifs". Too lazy to type in Chinese so I shall type in English :D
"What if(s) are useless because they will never happen. But sometimes, what if(s) is not a want but a need to ease the pain. Because only when you think about the what if(s), you will feel better.."

Alrighty. Shall go sleep now. Am sick already thanks to trials.
And also thanks to the always so efficient Puan Mahani, we're getting back our Chemistry Trial Paper tomorrow! :X
Idk what to expect. Sigh.
Until tomorrow :]



Sunday, September 25, 2011

Status: Dead and buried.

That's the current status of my maths.
I spent my day studying and working on maths yesterday and today, I woke up super early to work on it and still its as dead as ever.

I spent 4 hours to prepare my formula sheet and until now, its only partially done.
time flies. Time! Y_U_NO slow down?!
I told myself I'd take a nap at 3pm, who knew when I finished Chapter 6, I look at the clock, its already 4pm. Grrr!!!!

*sigh* Nehmind. I do not have high expectations for maths anyway.
Shall look forward to shouting merdeka tomorrow! xD
free from exams for a month! But I dont like that get-back-shitty-exam-papers part. D:

AND!
I regretted not going for Siemens Run! The medal is so unique! And I need the exercise!
Daddy has been too busy lately to bring me go jogging and I am not allowed to go on my own :O

Picture from Xin Yi's Facebook. xD

Till then :)


Friday, September 23, 2011

Maths.

of all subjects, I hate maths.
Maths' existence is to kill people like me.
A person who's not good in numbers.
too bad maths can't be memorized!
I HATE YOU MATHS!
Especially Differentiation and Integration!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

jammed.

I should thank myself for the brain malfunction this morning.
Biology was suppose to be the easiest because you just have to memorize it and there, you have all the answers. I was suppose to score! What happened to me this morning? #FML

Mr. Alfred - "Go and bang wall and die."
Mr. Wong - "Klang river very near."

positive side, 1 more freaking subject.
Maths on Monday.

* * *

I'm so lost.
sometimes, I just feel like giving up.
There's no point going through all this anyways.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

farney ah!


It's weird why I'm always online and blogging while I am having my exams.
Well, that's simply because I feel sleepy and I need to do something to recharge myself and obviously sleeping is not a good idea because.. for those who knows me, when I sleep, I don't get up easily! xD That is, if I am at home. If I'm outside, waking me up was never a problem! haha!

Today was kind of a failure because instead of spending 3 hours on Biology, I spent 3 hours on the newspaper! :O Target, finish the whole syllabus in 1.5 hours. After all, this is already a second round, so I guess it shouldn't take too long.

The photo above, is a photo of what my sister have been up to lately. Haha! Its St John's dedication. Your friend will be given 3 of these based on his/her initials for RM 1 :) If there's extra, be sure for a surprise, my dear friends! :DD

Alright, should go back to biology now! :)

Can't wait for the family trip after trials :D

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Depressed!

Never! 
I say NEVER
Never once in my 12 years of academic life hope for only a pass (core subjects la I mean) until today! #FML
This is depressing! :(


*facepalm*
mei you lian jian ren!

Studied so many freaking hours and only slept for 3.5 hours and I feel like I'm sitting for a foreign language paper!
I want to crap and fill in all the blanks but hell, I don't even know what to crap about! This is terrible. Seriously terrible.

I told my mum and got some nagging. Positive nagging - "Haiya! Then you should have watched TV all night instead of studying mah!"
Yeap, I should have done something else since almost everything that I revised yesterday and today didn't come out. PET scan, Photocopy machine, apa pun takda! Come out X-ray pulak! -____- #mournforphysics

Because I didn't know how to do the paper, I left many blanks and progressed super fast. Two Physics genius from my class sat beside me and they didn't know that I skipped a lot of questions, they saw me answering the 3rd paper in the 1.5hour slot and they panicked! GET THAT! I MADE THE GENIUS STUDENTS STRESSED! XD They thought they were slow, only to realize that I left many blanks. Haha!

Anyways, I'll be lucky if I even get a C. andddddd... I studied.. For an A!! 

SUAN LE BA! 10% fei liao.

Latest tweet on Twitter:
"shall mourn over my physics now. Wth. I should have watched TV and online all night. Whatever I studied yesterday didnt come out also -.-"

One day off! Shall make use of the extra 24 hours and study bio properly! I don't want to cry over Biology!
Goodbye, my dear A for Physics! #dang

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. - Ralph Waldo Emerson"

Monday, September 19, 2011

1 down..

Done with Chemistry!
(For this month, I mean xD)
I have no comment about how I did the paper. Shall not jinx it! :X

3 more subjects to go! :D

Physics smhycis tomorrow! I'll be alright! My sleepless nights will not go to waste! :D

Friday, September 16, 2011

When this happens..


My exams were always this way. Dang.
btw, ignore the F word.

on this day in 2010, I wrote this on Facebook:
"SPM, 'faster come, faster go', thanks to SPM, I feel guilty doing anything else besides studying"

And now, I feel exactly the same.
The nearer I am to my exams, the more I don't feel like studying. :(

Ms. Param e-mailed me. She told me to try my best to ACE THIS TRIAL EXAMS.
I wish I was confident enough to tell her, "Teacher, no worries, I know I can Ace this".

2 more days to the SAM trials.
After the 26th, I'm gonna give myself a day (or maybe 2 days) of holidays xD

Now, back to the books!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

daily fusion.

Mid Autumn festival on Monday.
Frankly, I didn't even know it was already zhong qiu jie on Monday. Until one of my friends asked me whether I'm gonna play with the latterns and candles instead of studying xD damn #fail
So in the end, my mid autumn festival this year was a very boring one. I spent it with the books since my sister went for her tuition and the two cousin brothers are sick. The other cousins are too far away to be contacted. saddening xD

Jing Yuan definitely had a great time playing with the candles xD I wish I lived near her!

Thank you Jing Yuan :)
We'll get the A+! :DD

btw, have you guys seen mooncakes as small as this one?
Pardon me if you have because I've never seen such mini sized mooncakes! xD


For the rest of the days, I was glued to my table, studying like no tomorrow. I kept studying and studying and studying. I finished the entire syllabus (with understanding) and then when I attempted the past year questions, I feel like strangling myself! Its really pissing when you've read everything and then don't know how to answer the questions. Gah!

I finished 60% of Chemistry this week. The last practical test.*phew!* Got 49/52 marks. Sounds very good but when it is converted to the internal assessment percentage, its actually quite bad.
Biology Issue Investigation, I got a handsome full marks! :D Writing that report until 4am is the morning was worth it! haha!
Physics, currently a B+. I hope I can pull up the grades soon :/
Maths, currently the worst subject, also a B+. Finished all the tests this week. Thank goodness. I'm sick of studying for Matrices!
Research Project, my proudest subject ever! hahaha! 99 marks! xD but that's not the final result yet. There's one more paper to go. I hope I can still get an A+ :)

I used 60% of my time tidying up my notes and to sort out every single paper that I've accumulated since January. Binded all the notes and past year questions and I feel so so good! At least everything is neatly arranged now :)
and these are only 60% of the notes. There's loads more to come!
Btw, anybody knows anybody who's gonna do SAM next year? Please ask them if they'll be interested to buy my books! See how neat they are?! You won't even need to sort anything because I've done that for you! xD The books are definitely brand-new-looking and its wrapped! so please please please take them away when I finish SAM! xD

Lastly, my IELTS results.
I just got them today! :) I fulfilled the requirement! The highest score is 9.0 for each section and the overall band - highest - is 9.0 too. So yea, 7.5/9.0. I rank between "Good User" and "Very Good User" xD Hahaha! Liao le yi zhuang xin shi! :D


Puan Mahani said, "do your very best now because you won't want to look back at yourself in the future and tell yourself that you could do better"

"SAM will decide for you your future career path. Your 12 years of studying will end up to this final exam"
This sentence was craved in my head.. What do I really want to be in the future? I love studying science but science students don't really have a bright future ($ wise) unless I'm gonna be a doctor/dentist/pharmacist/engineer and I'm not interested in any of those... *sigh* Nehmind, shall think about that after my trials!

3 more days till my trials!
Shall give it my best! :)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

counting down

counting down the days until the trials exam is worst than counting down for SPM!

I have been sitting in front of my desk, studying for the whole afternoon for tomorrow's Maths Directed Investigation and after 5 hours, I only finished 6 or 7 questions. #failtothemax

My mid-semester results are out and... and.. and.. I think I have the worst results among all my friends. #failagain Almost everyone have straight As and I only have 2 As. Its not that I want to compare but SAM is going to end and if my ATAR is not a competitive ATAR, I'm doomed.

Should go back to the books now. 4 days of trial exam is worst than a month of SPM. I would rather sit for those 10 subjects again! :(


Friday, September 9, 2011

Guardian Angel.

I bet everyone heard of the Guardian Angel thingy. Where you will be assigned to be the guardian of a person (the mortal) and that you will be a mortal of a person as well!

The student council decided to hold this activity and I gladly joined it. Because I feel that this is a really meaningful program :)

And so, I'll talk about my mortal first.
She's a sweet girl from G8, her name is Nicole Joann :)

Thanks to this program, I've become quite a stalker xD I stalked her profile almost everyday! haha!
And I found these! x)

That's the chocolate I gave her on Tuesday :) 

and this was from Wednesday.

And after that, I think she knew I added her, she stopped posting about it xD

This was Thursday

and for today, the last day of the program :)

It feels great to know that somebody is happy because of the little things you did for them :)
Uzma told me she saw Nicole holding Wednesday's gifts and smiling! Awwwww.. That made me feel so good for the rest of the day! xD

Me and Nicole :)

I'm glad to have made her smile for the past few days :)
Keep in touch yo! :)

 * * *
Okay, and now for my guardian angel.
*change of tone from a happy tone to a super pissed tone*
DON'T LET ME SEE THAT WHOLE GANG OF PEOPLE IN TAYLOR'S!
Hooligans/fools/buffoons/idiots/retards/childish/immature/没风度 and all other words that describe USELESS People!
I have never been that pissed for a long long time!
I was pissed till the extent that I wanted to say "F*cktards!" and show the middle finger which is a super super super rude and disrespectful behaviour. But I was angry until that extent! I don't even know why such bastards existed!

Thank you for ruining the whole game for me, you bunch of good-for-nothing people.

I'm so jelly (jealous) of my friends who got super nice guardian angels!
Jing Yuan even received a Starbucks tumbler worth around 50 bucks from her guardian angel! so so sweet! (he doesn't even know her! lol!)
All I received was a stupid prank. Bastards.

Never mind, I shall forget about those buffoons and be happy :P

Saturday, September 3, 2011

The Worst

The worst English Test I've ever sat!
I really put a lot of effort in this test, the results, be good please? :P


The books I borrowed from Taylor's Library.
The first two are.. erm.. *coughs* photo*coughs*copied.
I even searched the net and did further reading and exercises.

And now, I'm done with IELTS 
(Don't fail please! Fail then I'll have to do it all over again! x__x)
I'll get my results on the 15th of this month.

Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best :)
A big thank you to all my friends who helped me throughout my prep for IELTS :DD

and btw, I just received Monash University's Conditional Offer letter :)
awesome-ness :D

counting down to trials: 16 days!