The Dark Side.

I've seen + learned so much within the last few days. Things which I've noticed but am not convinced about. But now, I'm sure, that's how it is.

1. Being nasty.

I've noticed this a few months back that we were pretty similar. We both were.. the older sister, the not-so-pretty sister, the-somewhat-lacking sister, the-childish sister etc. Not to mention we used to have the signature bad temper. I, see myself in her. I saw the nasty side of her and in my eyes, I saw, a younger me, behaving like a brat in public. I felt so irritated by the way she is behaving, then only to realize that I, most probably, behaved like that too in the past. Which, now, I am desperate to change. Because, there was a day when I wanted to say "don't be such a bitch!" in her face, in front of her parents. I do not want to relive that part of me. I don't want to be like that any longer. I am less than 3 days away from being 20y/o, I don't want to be a nasty brat any more.

2. Being demanding.

Having a demanding personality is well.. I don't know how to put it in words but I know it may seem fine to demand something from someone, it is definitely not fun. Because, it will only make you look like a stubborn person. Demanding this, demanding that, making others feel bad, making others lose their temper just so you can have what you want. Its too much. I gave an obvious 'head shake' - a big no-no. What I've learned, "Majority wins", "Go with the flow", "compromise". Do not make unreasonable demand and do not resort to throwing tantrums when things do not go your way.

3. Stop complaining.

All these while I was wondering why she never said a word about anything. And now I finally knew, it wasn't because she nodded towards the wrongdoings of the younger ones, but because we have no rights to voice our opinions. She said "don't comment about others, next time it will be avenged on you". A simple sentence that means more than what it seems. What she said is true in the sense that, we have no say in what others do, we should not talk about others because who knows we might have behaved in a similar manner? In simple terms, stop bitching about others. Praise but not shame.

A good friend said, "don't change yourself for others. If they don't appreciate you for who you are, they don't deserve you as a friend." I agree to this, but then again, I am not changing for others, I am changing to be a better me. I do not want to live my life being a person that I, myself do not like to deal with. #Resolution2013

Pain, Gain

I realized that this blog is really gonna be dead if I don't update more often. So.. Here goes nothing!

* * *

After 2 months of torture brought to me by my dear wisdom tooth, I had a surgery to get the tooth out of my mouth. Because the "structure" of my mouth is obviously different from almost everyone (except everyone on my maternal side), the procedure to get rid of the tooth is slightly more tedious than expected. The worst part? My jawbone was shaved off (a third of it) to allow the tooth to come out. The sound of the machine was horrible. I can actually feel my jawbone being shaved even when the anaesthetic jabs were doing their best blocking the nerves on the left side of my face. I was numbed from eye-down. 

The whole procedure took up less than 45 minutes. But now, my face is swelled up like a pumpkin. Haha! Oh well, at least I will never have to worry one less tooth to worry about :)

* * *

A spoiled spoiled child. 

I want an iPhone, I want an iPad, I want a camera, I want this shoe, I want that bag, I want everything! But none of these things are essentials for me to go on with life. I don't need any of them, I just WANT them. Greedy as it may seem, I realized that I was really lucky. My parents seldom said No to what I want. No matter how unreasonable my request is, as long as it is within their budget, they would get it for me. I never knew how lucky I was, until I went overseas and had to control every cent I spent on myself. Knowing that each penny I'm using was earned through my parents' hard work. I started thinking twice before buying anything. I would ask myself "Do you really need it?" and "if you won't die without it, give it a second/third/fourth/Nth thought and don't regret it". I'll tell you, to push away something a girl has set her mind on buying is a darn-right-hard task. Depression. Lol.

* * *

I've learned many things in the past few months. But one thing I cannot get myself to learn is the way to express myself in a way that I won't offend anyone. Maybe I am too sensitive, maybe I just can't talk properly, I don't know which, but I feel that I have problems communicating with people.

There's this one girl I know, we're always in a group. Whenever I say something, she would ALWAYS, ALWAYS find a mistake in whatever I say. I realized it so many times till the extent that I'm reluctant to talk whenever she's around. Once, I was just trying to say something like "You did a great job! Good for you!" to A, but she said (in a very sarcastic and insulting tone) to A "Zhi Han is just trying to say that you've never done well previously". I was like wtf?! Then again, I can't blame her because maybe I've said it in a wrong way. I really don't know.

I am very straightforward when it comes to things that I find unfair/unjust or simply just hateful. Only then, do I not care about what I say because I intend to be harsh. When I try to change a tone, people just say that I'm faking it. Sometimes, I'm really fed up with what others want of me in my speech but I can't ignore it, can I? Because if I do, it will just become more and more hard to communicate with people around me. Can anyone help me to talk properly? Loathe myself. 

* * *

Will talk about the trip soon :)

Gonna head to bed before my face swells up and becomes worse than how it already is.

Nighto!

I can, I will!

Have you seen this 9GAG before?

 It was in the Monash Parkville group and I find it so true!

It happens to me EVERY TIME!

But this time, it will not happen. I may procrastinate, yes, slack, yes, but I will definitely force myself to put in more effort. I may not be ready now, but I really hope I will be when its exam time. Because if I can't do well in First Year, what makes me think I can do well in Second Year, Third Year and Fourth Year? It will only get harder and harder. I don't want to look back and ask myself why didn't I put it more effort when the syllabus wasn't that tough yet. I don't want to look back like how I did to my SPM and question myself why didn't I work harder.

In 14 days, I will be facing my finals.

Stressed..? You bet! But I'm hope sure I can manage this well :)

Have a break, have a Kit Kat :))

Thanks to 7-Eleven Australia, they are giving away free 45g Kit Kats everyday until the last day of my final exams (isn't the timing just fantastic?) :D

Now I have something to munch while studying! Haha!

3 computer based exams this coming week.

And the next week is called SWOT VAC, I don't know what it stands for but it means that we have a week of holidays to study for our exams.

I still remember how we used to say PMR is Darurat (in English - State of Emergency. Lol)

Well, my darurat is just about to begin :)

No, I can't.

I cannot stop you from reading what you've already read,

I cannot stop you from thinking what's on your mind right now,

I cannot stop you from doing what you feel like doing to me,

But what I can do is, I won't show you the best of me.

For a moment there, I felt ashamed of myself for what I have done.

But after what you did, I realized that I was foolish to feel ashamed of that thought.

I don't know what's in your mind right now,

but I know, it's only 2 months and 3 days away.

Then, I will smile, from the bottom of my heart.

When I look at you, I feel the heat, the anger, the feeling of wanting to overthrow you.

I questioned myself, what and why did I make this decision.

I look at myself in the mirror, I am no longer the little girl who will ask mummy to braid her hair before school, I am the girl who would work out all the necessary measures to fend herself.

I will, show you, I can do, whatever I set myself to do.

The fact.

*wipes away negative vibes*

I have been an emotional wreak these few days.

Bad news again this afternoon. The earliest that I can move out of here would be in July.

*sings - you are far, far away!*

Fine.

*get rid of grumpy face*

Will try my best not to be grumpy anymore and focus on my studies.

No point ruining my day for something stupid.

Tan Zhi Han, learn to live with all this crap!

I shall learn how to shut myself from the things that annoy me.

*go-away-crappy-life-and-I-shall-thank-you!*

* * *

Anyway, I realized I never really post about my dad coming for a visit. So here it is :)

As I mentioned before, my daddy came to visit me last, last weekend. For 5 days. It is stupid how I used to not really appreciate him in the past 19 years. I had to come ALL THE WAY to Australia to realize how important my family is to me and how much I love them. I am sorry and I promise it won't happen again  ♥

I nearly cried when I saw him at the airport at 1.30am. I was so so happy! I remember I couldn't really sleep that night because I was so happy that he's finally here!

The next morning, both of us went to tour the city. 

I showed him the route that his poor daughter has to walk about 2 - 3 times a week. What he said was...

"zhe me yuan ah?! Girl, wo bu neng liao leh" XD

His first photo in Melbourne! xD

Imagine if I walk here after dark. It will be so scary :S

I brought him over to Monash to have a look. And look what we did while we were there..

Skyping with the mum and sister who're back in Malaysia  ♥

On the Sunday that my dad came, my uncle brought us out for a road trip for the first time.

On weekdays, my dad would spend his time walking around the city while I am having my classes. When it's lunch time, he'll come over to Monash and we'll have lunch together :)

How CUTE?! xD

5 days came and went.

My uncle helped to print some photos for dad to bring home to Malaysia to show everyone back home. 

I was a wreak. It was so hard to say goodbye all over again.

Our last photo together before we went home.

Like daddy said, at least we had 5 days. Way better than if he didn't come at all :')

I will be alright daddy :)

* * *

I met up with a friend's brother who's working at Melbourne last Saturday.

He reminds me a lot of his brother, very easy to talk to. Penguin, are you reading this? :D

Thanks for the lunch and I really appreciate all your help :)

* * *

Everyone is looking forward for the Easter holidays - 2 weeks from now.

I hope I can get the best out of this holiday. Mid-semester exams coming. I must be well-prepared.

Hopefully I will get through all these in one piece! :)

Till then :)

First week.

First day of lectures and we were told that we have 2 presentations coming up. Topics and groups were up on Blackboard. All this - on the first day :O

I have History of Australian Pharmacy and a lot of MATHS - double " D: " face

Our maths must be always >80% or we will fail the whole unit (subject) and have to do it again the next year. #ifeelstressed

But at the same time, I'm starting to love my life here - more and more, day by day.

I enjoy walking around the city alone, looking for something to do. If the weather's great, I'll go to Yarra River, sit by the banks and read a book. Turn on the music and indulge in my own thoughts on the train.

Everything's gonna be alright.

I hope I won't have to face that problem again.

I hope I can go through this year happily + positively + successfully :D

Happy studying!

All Wrapped Up.

Happiness.

Sorrow.

Remain untold.

Is it me or does this happen really often?

Just when I'm about to leave, I realized that I've been having a lot a lot of fun. With my friends and even people whom I've not known previously. My family and I are getting along fine or even better than ever. I'm having an awesome time.

:)

A friend asked me:

"Would you like us to go with you to the airport? I think it would be better if we not go, it'll be easier for you.."

The thing is, I don't know.

I DO want my friends to be there. It'll make me feel less lonely and all. After all, I'm going there alone.

On the other hand, if my friends are there, I am quite sure I'll cry. Saying goodbye isn't easy. Especially to people who means something in your life.

I suppose "leaving" isn't a good way to say it..?

I think it'll be better as "a vacation" because I will be coming back later this year (I suppose).

If you ask me again how do I feel about going to Australia to further my studies, I will tell you I don't know. The excitement is fading and separation is bugging me.

*thinking about my 2012 resolutions!*

Trying to get myself used to the life of a loner. Lol. Eat alone, walk alone, shop for necessities alone. Because I think that's how my Monash life would be for the first few weeks. Walking to class alone, taking the train alone and studying alone. It'll be super boring for a person as talkative as me! lol!

* * *

Today was another laughing-filled day :D

It was VAD's Refresher Course.

The day wasn't as bad as I expected. Haha! I'm sure I'll miss all of this :')

The Pre-Departure Briefing is tomorrow.

Will be meeting up with Jing Yuan, Olivia and Uzma for dinner :)

Can't wait to meet up with them!

Can't.Breathe.

"Congratulations! You have been issued with a full course offer for Monash University. "

When I saw that e-mail, my heart stopped pumping for a minute there. Oh.My.Gawd. I've got the offer! Like finally! Lol! I am kinda speechless.

I've been accepted to Monash University, Parkville Campus for Bachelor of Pharmacy!!

I'm so excited about it! The adrenaline rush when I read the offer letter. That feeling of being accepted into the top 8 university in Australia! (Melbourne U is the first and Monash is the fifth) It's like everything paid off, but.. 

At the same time, I feel so.. Selfish. (irony eh?) My parents earned the money and I'm spending everything. And the worst part, I don't even know if I like Pharmacy. I chose Pharmacy because I don't want to give up on Science. Studying Bachelor of Science will get me no where. I don't want to be a doctor/nurse/dentist/engineer. I've never (I mean NEVER EVER) gave a thought to Pharmacy. 

sometimes, we don't have a choice. It's not about what we like, it's about that something that will secure us a future. 

A friend told me that.

Oh well, I have 2 weeks to decide. Then I'm gonna have to pay the deposit already. Wish me Good Luck! :]

Hoping everything will turn out fine :)

Yea.Maybe.Whatever.

I'm not as high-spirited as when I just reached California.

Maybe we traveled too much. Maybe we argued too much. Maybe some people we just being unreasonable. We went from town to town, from the state of California, to the scenic views and amazing weather in the state of Arizona (Sedona) and then to the main attraction of Nevada (Las Vegas). Now we're back at California, spending the last few days in Los Angeles.

I am still grateful I have the chance to come here, I really am, but I am tired. Just tired. I'm tired of enjoying everything here. I'm tired of eating fast food, I'm tired of being dehydrated because the water is just effing expensive and they still tax you and also charge you for every plastic bottle you buy (there are no such things as refills). I am SICK of treating my hands and ankles everyday when I know after they've healed in the morning, they'll just crack and bleed again at night. I look like a patient with severe skin disease. wtf. The skin on my face is worse too. And then all those ridiculous arguments between ourselves, those situation which will cause you to stand at wits end, knowing that you're gonna lose your mind and yet you have to smile and say polite things. I am tired of it here. I want to go home.

Went to Universal Studios Hollywood today. I won't say that I had a really good time, I can't say that I didn't enjoy it either. I can only say that I wish to go back there again in the future and that time, I will make sure I enjoy 100%! Sigh big time.

Disneyland tomorrow. I don't think I'll enjoy that much either. Maybe, just the fireworks. Unless... Ah, better shut up. I am not in the right position to comment on anything. :( Gonna leave the States in less than 3 days and will be heading to Taiwan and spend a few more days there before heading home. Am gonna be home soon :]

Eh?

Studying eh?

Thanks to JHow and PJing for getting me out of the house to watch Real Steel :)

It was a great movie :)

Max washing Atom after he found him in the junk yard.

The robot which saved Max's life.

During the tournament, Atom - nearly defeated by Zeus.

Never give up. Keep Fighting.

Back at you, Zeus!

Courage is stronger than Steel.

Get back on your feet after every hit, keep your wits about you and keep fighting!

I SHALL NOT DO THIS :

Have been keeping to my study timetable for the past few weeks. Haha!

I am actually quite proud of that.

A few more days and it's all going to be over!

Keep going, Tan Zhi Han!!

All the best to all SAM and AusMat Students! :)

P/s. AusMat students under WACE are so lucky that they do not need to wake up early to sit for 7am papers. Jealous max xD

Fortius - Stronger

To make sure that we do not give up on ourselves after our bad results for the trial examinations, Ms Param gave each of us a metal puzzle. Representing either  fortius, altius or citius. What's that you say? Its a kind of metal puzzle that has the ability to damage a person's brain cell in a shortest time possible. (Fortius, altius and citius is the Olympic motto)

Still have no idea? well, this is what it looks like. All we have to do is to separate the metal puzzle into two pieces.

I managed to get this one out! Haha! It looks damn easy but mind you, it is uber hard.

I managed to solve the bottom one too! Muahahahaha! But those two pieces - categorized as the easy ones - are not mine! Mine is something like the top left one. It was passed around the whole class and nobody could solve the puzzle. :S

What my lecturer wanted to tell us is that nothing is impossible. Let's go Adidas - Impossible is nothing! xD We should try harder for the finals so we don't spoil our chances of getting a competitive ATAR.

When I saw my final assessment results today, I was quite shocked. The 3 sciences, I got A- for all. Never would I still dream of having an A- after my pitfall in the trials. I don't know anything about Maths yet but I hope it is a B+ :/

should head back to work :)

Sometimes.

Sometimes, reading this kind of stuff makes you feel that you're so blessed. Blessed that it is not you who have to face all this.

I was walking around in a supermarket when i saw a cashier hand this little boy his money back, the boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll.'' The little boy turned to the old woman next to him, ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?'' She replied, ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.'' Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. 

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.' I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this, 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.'' My heart nearly stopped. 

The little boy looked up at me and said, 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself. He was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she didn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

 I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll!'' OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said, 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!' Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.'' 'My mommy loves white roses.' 

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state of mind from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? 

Two days after this encounter with the little boy I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. 

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. 

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine, and in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. 

 * * *

On the other hand...

Sometimes, academic results may not be everything..

You might be super smart, but even if you're not, it doesn't matter..

A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." 

With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands: Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with bob and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and bob said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. bob taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so bob can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children. Your daughter, Jessy... PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home...." 

Ahhahahahahaha! #epic! xD

Sometimes, I really feel that parents should be satisfied with their child's academic results. I know I am not in the right to say anything because I am not a parent and I don't know how it feels. But still, I really believe that having kids that have a great personality and bad grades is better than kids who do not behave properly and, have bad results. Zhi zu ba..

Saturday.

 20th of August.

I was in such a big dilemma.

I wanted to go for Taylor's Preview Day and at the same time, I wanted to attend St John's AGM. Both events are taking place at the same time.

So in the end, I told Taylor's that I'll be late and I went back to KH for a while :)

Imagine, I'm wearing formal (skirt and heels ._.) and stepping into KH. Lol

The worst part was that I'm wearing the PUA tee, so it looks like I am a promoter from Taylor's -___-

I only had 3 photos from that event. Haha!

Congratulations to San Yong for being appointed as the new chairman :)

Congrats to the newly appointed committees!

It is now up to you guys to run the division and make sure that we're still standing :)

Somehow, we were just brought up this way.

It's a tradition that we cannot disobey, it's the only reason why we're still standing.

it's a tradition that we're proud of :)

I'm sorry, if I'm not able to help out in the next mission. But I will definitely try my best to help in every way I can :)

*

For Taylor's event, I was one of the emcee and also the Pre-U Ambassadors.

I was so nervous when I presented my slide show that my English was all crappy.

I felt really bad and that I've humiliated Taylor's. I'm so so sorry :X

as for the emcee part, my cousin brother actually said that I was quite good. Hahahaha!

at least something positive from all that embarrassment. :]

I just hope that I will have another chance in the future.

Next time, I will not be as anxious as I was on that day. *fingers crossed!*

first time wearing the blazer xD

It feels weird. Haha.

Every goodbye leads to the next hello :)

Rough.

Every Friday, I will definitely shout TGIF!

What's better to look forward to then a 2-day holiday after a super rough week?

I realized that instead of blogging, I took up the habit of taking pieces of scrap paper and a pencil and started filling the papers with what I wanted to say and then, tear it into a million pieces. Then.. I'll feel better.

It has been a really really rough week.

I'm tired of complaining and worrying. I'll die of depression.

I have been studying this whole week and I'm still worried that my "studied" is not good enough when I sit for my exams.

I'm trying very hard to relax.

I've also realized that I took up shopping.

Somehow I feel the satisfaction of possessing something after a rough day.

But no worries, I have a tight budget.

I don't spend more than I should on a weekly basis.

I want to go out for a movie!

I haven't watch Harry Potter wey! D:

I WANNA WATCH IT SO BADLY!

But nobody can go with me, my family hates Harry Potter. 

When I brought them to watch Part 1, 

I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY SLEPT IN THE CINEMA! -________-

anybody out there who haven't watch Harry Potter? Lol.

Bring me along! xD

anyways, I should stop here.

Here's some vids I would suggest that you guys watch it :D

Fighting Gravity

It's a performance and it is not related to science.

I can't embed it because it's not allowed. Haha

Check out their other performances too! :D

super nice xD

Searching.

I typed a really long post.

Then I realized that I'm just crapping.

So I Ctrl A, deleted it all.

Like the title, I am searching for stuff/info/traces of things that I've lost/about to face.
I just can't stop being reminded about it.

Tweets from Twitter:

"I miss the times when she calls me almost every night in F3 & 4 and regards me as her best friend. What about now..?"

"RT @livvy_mae I hate people who don't appreciate their friends."

Regarding this topic, I want a friend of mine to know: I caused SO much trouble this week just because of you. Things that you can but don't want to do it yourself. I settled it for you. And you didn't even say thank you. You complained about this and that and asked him "do you want to attend, FRANKLY?" You really awe me, girl. Hello! We did so much for you and all you did was ask us to DON'T CALL YOU ANYMORE. Ok, fine, you will not hear from me anymore. Settle your own problem next time. Yea, I just can't believe that you are so busy. You can Facebook but you do not have time to reply my text. I never wanted to lose a best friend like you. I'm really disappointed in you.. x(

"RT @smilingeyes1510 ._. Humans should appreciate the loved ones around them no? Cherish the moments you have or you'll regret some other day."

This week was a super emo week.

I can't feel myself anymore.

I feel super childish and I feel like I am behaving like a person I don't want to be.

Next week's gonna be a better week.

Problems be solved, please.

I don't want to remember what killed me this week.

Emo no more :)

Friends from G4, thanks for all the laughs that I had this week :)

@Greenlolli (Jing Yuan) 

@livvy-mae (Olivia) 

@uzmaaa (Uzma) 

@ng_sw (Shien Wee)

@pravinkamachee (Pravin)

@Aaron0987x (Aaron)

P/s. Watch the video and be awed. :)

Because..

I just Don't Understand!!

I don't understand why it is such a small issue but they have to make it a big one.

Seriously, as long as there is a way of settling this, I am more than willing to cooperate.

为什么就是不能一人做事， 一人当？

你不顾面子不表示我也和你一样

不负责任！

One day Camp :)

details are as per above :)

I entered SAM at Taylor's without a single friend. It was only a week before the orientation that I know that I have a long-time-no-contact friend studying SAM.

I entered SAM under Principal Awards and later, we were told that all recipients of the award are the Pre-U Ambassadors of Taylor's College Subang Jaya. Frankly, besides the other Kwang Hua-rians, I know nobody in the ambassador level.

And hence, I attended this camp, alone.

Knowing no one besides the fact that I can only recognize people from the same department as me from their shirts.

We made a move to Lakeside Campus at 9.30am.

Our day camp is at the Taylor's Lakeside.

We're only using the experimental hall.

We were divided into groups for the activities that they have planned.

I am in Group 2 :)

My first impression of my group was :"wow, they must really be scholarship material because they are so sporting and their can speak out for themselves without a problem and and andd... They have a super high IQ!" (They can figure out things so easily when I can't x( )

Which camp does not have Station Games?

The first game was Treasure Hunt.

We're suppose to find 15 out of 50 things in the campus.

For example, we need to find a Zebra! How is that possible?! lol! And a Yellow Porshe?? 

The games were somehow really challenging.

It was more IQ and teamwork based than physical.

Amazingly, I enjoyed working with my group so much.

We have no quarrels and we were all willing to give our 100% to every activity conducted :)

The prize giving ceremony.

Third prize is Group 1 :) 

2nd Prize, unbelievably, was my group, Group 2 ♥

I am not sure about the spelling, but here it goes :)

From left, Yen Ling, Me, Cally, Shane, Zhi Min and Wang Lin.

An all girls group :)

First Prize goes to Group 5 :)

Group photo :)

Now, photos of all the participants and the coaches :)

why the back?

Because, we have our departments labelled on our backs. Like me, my department is EMBER.

There's Leadership, Events and Speech, Counselling and EMBER :)

I am glad I attended the camp.

(before this I thought it was just a waste of time xp)

I made a lot of new friends and at least now I know all the other EMBER members :)

It was another day well spent :)

Before ending this post, would like to thank Kang Li for the last minute offer to fetch me back to Klang. If not I would be stranded in SS15 for another 1 hour I think. Heh! Andddd... I know this sounds super stupid but I want to drive like Kang Li! lol!

Hoping for more activities like this in the future :)

Previously..

Tests, tests and more tests.

Lately, I never left Taylor's before 9.30pm.

There was too much work to do and I know I need assistance. (I am not smart)

4 of us with 8 calculators.

4 of us using 2 big round tables.

4 of us taking up 8 chairs.

It was a mess.

The cafeteria at night was full. Everyone was studying there, some even in the pyjamas xD

Remember how we always learn reflux in secondary?

Liebig condenser etc? This is how the reflux apparatus looks like :)

The well-known Liebig condenser.

Research Project's not over yet.

I am still running while writing my reports and stuff.

Idk how many weeks ago, I entered my parents' company's run on behalf of them.

Bukit Jelutong is definitely not the ideal place for running.

my exhausted face :P and my dear mom! :)

My mom, me and my dad x)

in case you're wondering where is my sister, she's in school :P

these are the requirements for the research project and hell, I have less than half of them. Whoops!

Maths has always been a question mark.

I was never on good terms with numbers, not now, not ever.

I didnt even get an A+ for Add Maths so how to cope with all these?

Mr. Tharam was too fast. I couldn't catch up with him so I might as well take photos of what he wrote on the board and copy them at home. Like Mr. Low once said:"VISUALIZE!!!" XD "Copying is the work of a nurse, be a doctor, not a nurse!" XD XD

btw, that's Mr. Tharam on the right :P

btw again, he is YingJing's mentor :)

The thing about studying at SS15 is that I am growing horizontally. and that, is BAD!

SS15 is like food heaven and one can never stop eating here.

and heh, that's what I did, I kept eating.

The more I exercise, the more I eat -.-!

A new *whoops!* my mistake. Two new bubble milk tea shops had their grand opening at SS15 last week.

One is Chatime and one is GongCha.

I think there's 7 bubble milk tea shops now?

Chatime's opening comes with discounts and all so we decided to pay them a visit.

If I am anywhere near rich, I will come here at least 3 times a week! lol! (I know its not really healthy but hey, I can't resist food :P)

a candle for the first 1000 Large sized drinks sold if I am not mistaken.

This is ShienWee's, not mine.

Went to Lakeside Campus last Monday.

Group study again. 

and, you know la, I am hungry! xD

Lakeside in one way or another is like super commercialized.

There are so many shops so much so that I feel like I am in a shopping mall instead of a uni.

Angry Birds! xD

somehow, I hope to study there one day.

Maybe next year? :P

More homework for research project. *sighs!*

Had a weird talk a few days ago.

Its about presentation skills.

And guess wert, my group have to present on the topic....

-.-!

Had a field trip to Monash University yesterday.

It wasn't as I expected.

Not in a bad way, but also not in a good way.

Its somehow just average.

But it is huge and marvelous xp

the library.

There are actually iPads and Netbooks for rental! lol! and its free to all Monash Students.

imagine, their library is so big, they need this -.-

bean bags?

discussion room

study zone.

I will not study here if I were a Monash student. I'll die of dehydration thanks to no ventilation.

see? One miserable fan for so many tables.

they are actually building a rock climbing wall for the students. Wow!

The residential rooms and suites.

the block for staffs.

on the left, the time in Malaysia, the right, time in Melbourne.

The labs.

Frankly, I'd still prefer to study at Taylor's :P

Because Taylor's somehow provide a better environment compared to Monash.

Idk, just my opinion. Not like I can afford to go Monash anyways.

For 20% scholarship in Bachelor program, I have to have an ATAR of 95% and above. Impossible.

Going to Lakeside again tomorrow for Pre-U Ambassador's Camp.

Wonder what is that all about.

Gotta work harder this weekend. Have loads to cover before all the practical tests next week. :]