May.

I'm here for two months already. And guess what? My one month winter break is less than two months away. Lol. Final exams starting in a month and 12 days. I am definitely not prepared for any of this :/

My uni days are not getting any easier. Sometimes I wonder if I am not working hard enough. Last year, I was so cincai with everything that I did. I studied but definitely not as hard as how I am this year. Last year, almost all my assignments came back with super high marks, almost every assignment was 90% and above. But this year, mehh.. ALL my assignments were barely passing. 50% today, 60% tomorrow. Everything is going downhill. I have no idea why and its pretty depressing. I guess maybe because the syllabus is a lot harder this year compared to last year. Should start studying again if I don't want to see 50% (P, Pass) in my final exams.

Nowadays, I'm living by my goal of leading a healthier life. No more staying up late, no more sleeping till 10am. NO MORE! Lol. I force myself to go to sleep before 12am and I pull myself up at 7am everyday. I exercise more often and I eat cleaner. Except when I am stressed. When I am stressed, nothing helps me more than feeding myself with junk -___- And then, my whole week/month's clean eating and exercising went down the drain. But then again, I do feel better. I don't feel like shit every morning. I get up, I don't feel sleepy like I used to and I don't have the need to take naps in the afternoon. A reason why I want to live healthier now is because I'll never be able to do it in Malaysia. Imagine, after not eating Malaysian food for 9 months and you still expect me to NOT eat and do clean eating instead? That's never gonna happen. I miss Malaysian food so much! I sure have a lot of unfixed cravings! D:

I saw a tweet saying that if we are able to eat 3 meals a day for 3 weeks straight, we're actually the top 15% of the richest people in the world. I guess its not about being rich or not, its about being thankful that you don't have to starve, don't have to beg for food. I know I'm grateful for that :) 

Okay, should stop blogging and start studying now. Hopefully I'll do better in the tests next week! :)