A race against myself.

They say you are the enemy to yourself. Because, nobody else knows how much you want it, nobody else knows how far you are willing to go for your dreams. Only you know that, and only you stand between you and your dreams. Everything else is just some random obstacles that you will face along the route to your future.

I am having a race against myself, a race against time, a race against who I want to be.

- this is my calculator cover, if you are wondering -

At first I thought that it was because I am working now, that's why I feel the need to race against time for every single thing but I guess that might not be the case as most of my friends who are not working are also facing the same situation.

I don't know how much I want this, I don't know how far I can go but I will go as far as I can. People kept telling me to quit my job because I am starting to get really stressed. But the fact is, if I quit now, I have 20 hours extra to slack every week. What is the point? I know myself well when it comes to slacking. I need something to push me on. I need to feel the stress to keep going.

I need to do better.

I need the family to know that they can have one less person to worry about.

Life has always been a race, isn't it?

And we should not stop fighting.

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The rich and the poor.