对不起，我玩不起

I finally cried. After keeping it in for so long I finally cried.

I cannot play games like this. I can face any challenge, be depressed and forget about it but I cannot face this. Don't take away someone who is so dear to me. At least not now. Give everyone a few more years, please? I cannot do this. I just can't. Thank you to those who told me to be strong but I'm sorry, I admit I can't be strong at times like this. Every line in the conservation is stabbing right through my heart. The pain is unbearable. 

It is scary to know how so much can change within a few months time. Please tell me its not time yet. Please tell me there's still months left. Please don't say its weeks. Please say its months or better, please let it be years. I don't want to say goodbye. Not just yet. 

I know this is not something we can control. But I still hope it won't end like this. Please wait for me to go home. Please, just please, at least wait until summer. I beg You. Please don't take her away. Not yet.

Please be with me. Don't force me to grow up this way. I am not ready.

Please don't give up the fight.

You can't lose, because we can't lose you.
I cannot bear the pain of losing you.

I miss you so so so much!

I wish you can hear me now, I want to tell you I love you.

Always have and always will.