My bad.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

People take you for granted. 

People expect more of you but does not care for you like how you cared for them. People think they own you and you are to listen to every freaking thing they say.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

I feel used.  

I feel like I do not need to care for them simply because they never cared for me. I feel like I am a slave to people whom I did not recognise as my masters.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

Never was I appreciated. 

Never was I remembered when there were events going on unless my help is needed. Never did I complain when I have to serve them because I know I have to depend on them in the near future.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

I feel so sad. 

I feel so depressed at why I have to work so hard to keep this relationship when others don't have to. I feel so disappointed in myself because I can't event stand up and defend myself.

My friends, My family.

* * *

Her.

Some friends saw my tweets and asked me why I hate her so much. Kids should be loved! I know, I love kids - love them a lot! But this one, is a really nasty case. You'll have to be in my shoes to understand. Today, I nearly yelled my lungs out at her! wtf. Disgust ttm! They say that she'll change, but it has been 3 years now. Every year she comes back, she never changes, every year I am counting down the day till she leaves. But this year, it's different, I'll be seeing her for the whole year! Make that 4 years! You cannot imagine how painful it is for me. Even thinking about it makes me feel like crying. I've never had this strong feeling of "I-must-stay-away-from-this-person-or-I'll-die" before. Sigh * infinity.

家家有本难念的经。 

This is the only thing in life that I am not thankful about. 

In fact, I HATE LIVING MY LIFE LIKE THIS! >:(