31 days.

January has been wonderful to me despite all the awful/boring moments, I had uncountable outings with ze awesome people in my life :D

Here's a lil update for the events of the past 10 days xD

I am quite lazy to upload the photos that is already in Facebook, so.. 

for the outing with my cute and one and only elder cousin sister, click here

for the Pangkor Laut trip with the clan, click here 

P/s. I want to go there AGAIN! It's great! But a word of advice, go with a package! Don't go without, because, you're gonna pay blood for the meals. With the package, you need not pay for your meals at all and you can choose one appetizer, one main dish and one dessert, it's all inclusive in your package! For eg, our lunch for 12 adults, cost RM 1744 -_-

Outing with Zhi Yin when she came back for CNY :)

Outing with the prefects! 

Never thought I'd go but somehow, I just feel that I wanna meet up with the sisters :) it was a great day :)

House hopping with 5S2 :))

Thank you for the birthday cake yo :D Love you guys!

birthday celebration with the family :)

♥

He's really annoying sometimes but most of the time, he's just CUTE!

His dad loves this picture - a lot! xD And normally, he hates taking pictures so it's my lucky day!

Cake from Secret Recipe :D

With the lil cousins :D

Being bullied by my soon-to-be-landlords.

Celebrating our birthdays together - with Esther Teh :D

Exchanging presents! :D

Loving January ♥

I hope February will be better :D

Oh yea, and there's one part of January that I like the most - I get to see fireworks almost everyday :D 

Just like yesterday, one of my neighbours set off 4 boxes of fireworks (so rich) and I thank him because it was simply amazing! :DD

Counting down the days till I go to Aussie: 10 days

Girls Night Out.

College mates - Jing Yuan, Uzma and Olivia ♥

I miss them a lot. The great moments, the epic moments, the stressful moments in SAM. We shared it all :)

We spent our night at Skewers @ Subang Avenue.

Awesomeness is the word I can use to describe the night. We should do that again! Haha! See you guys again soon! :)

Loves ♥

My bad.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

People take you for granted. 

People expect more of you but does not care for you like how you cared for them. People think they own you and you are to listen to every freaking thing they say.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

I feel used.  

I feel like I do not need to care for them simply because they never cared for me. I feel like I am a slave to people whom I did not recognise as my masters.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

Never was I appreciated. 

Never was I remembered when there were events going on unless my help is needed. Never did I complain when I have to serve them because I know I have to depend on them in the near future.

Sometimes. Sometimes.

I feel so sad. 

I feel so depressed at why I have to work so hard to keep this relationship when others don't have to. I feel so disappointed in myself because I can't event stand up and defend myself.

My friends, My family.

* * *

Her.

Some friends saw my tweets and asked me why I hate her so much. Kids should be loved! I know, I love kids - love them a lot! But this one, is a really nasty case. You'll have to be in my shoes to understand. Today, I nearly yelled my lungs out at her! wtf. Disgust ttm! They say that she'll change, but it has been 3 years now. Every year she comes back, she never changes, every year I am counting down the day till she leaves. But this year, it's different, I'll be seeing her for the whole year! Make that 4 years! You cannot imagine how painful it is for me. Even thinking about it makes me feel like crying. I've never had this strong feeling of "I-must-stay-away-from-this-person-or-I'll-die" before. Sigh * infinity.

家家有本难念的经。 

This is the only thing in life that I am not thankful about. 

In fact, I HATE LIVING MY LIFE LIKE THIS! >:(

Happy Dragon Year :)

Dragons, they're mythical creatures, everyone knows that. And that's what makes this year so special :)

A year has passed since the rabbit took over the lunar calender. Oh well, say goodbye, rabbit, and wait another 12 years for your turn!

Another reason why is it special? Because this year, my lunar birthday and my actual birthday falls on the same day! It seems that this happens every 19 years and is true most of the time. 

This year, I went back to Penang. I saw all my cousins and I was awed at how they've grown since I last met them. Idk why, but this year, it felt more like home compared to the other years. Maybe because we've all grown up and don't fight anymore. Or maybe it's because they're boys and we (my sister and I) are the only 2 girls? Either way, it feels better :)

And did I mention that Penang people have no sense of humour? We watched Ah Beng and also I Love Hong Kong today and well, only the 3 of us were laughing. The whole cinema was quiet. It was so embarrassing -__-

Anyway, 

Happy Dragon Year everyone!

May dreams become reality,

and may goals be achieved.

May this dragon year be a special year, blessed with happiness, joy, luck, health and wealth :)

Have a pleasant new year!

Even I'm surprised.

Trooping of Colours on the 11th.

Wasn't supposed to be one of the escorts, but nevermind, things happen.

I was surprised at myself for what happened. I can't believe it happened again when the weather was simply fantastic. But I did get a hitch the night before that I'll pass out yet I thought I was just fooling myself. Who knew.. My body knows better eh? And after that, I couldn't even stand properly, my legs were numb and weak -_- But thank goodness I can still drive. Haha!

Thank you to everyone for helping me :) I really appreciate it.

Here are some photos from the day.

We're S/Sgt and Sgt for the day!

Ah Khim Ah Khim, tak naik pangkat ah?! XD #justsaying

Kwang Hua-ians :)

Where's the photo of all the Kwang Hua-ians together? :/ Who's camera was that anyways? Lol

Made a trip to Jusco with Nyee Huey and Huey Khim :)

See how exhausted I look? Haha! It was a tiring day. I slept a few extra hours that day xD

Nyee Huey, how do you like being tailed by me when you're driving? You should have seen Huey Khim's face. She couldn't stop laughing in the passenger seat. Haha! We had a great time :)

SAM's Award Ceremony

It was on the first Friday of January.

Students with an ATAR of 90.00 and above were invited to join this event.

Each student will be awarded a erm.. what's that called again.. Crystal-ish thingy with your name and score on it. It was so nice! :D The ATAR 95.00 and above students have a taller version of it and we had a shorter version of the crystal-ish thing which looks like..

This photo #fail la. So blur :( But anyways, I'm gonna miss G4 :') College memories #awesomeness!

All the students who attended the award ceremony :)

Thank you Taylor's, for the awesome year.

SAM - Super Awesome Matriculation!

Yes or No?

"You should go get a haircut because a haircut in Aus can cost a lot"

I don't have much time left.

"But I've already chopped 3 inches!"

I can't pretend that it didn't happen

"When I mean cut, I mean shoulder length or shorter"

I chose to stop all the wandering thoughts because they will never be true.

"WHAT?!"

Bitch please.

I believe 7 out of 10 girls would give the same reaction? Dilemma dilemma. Mum said I wasted money chopping the 3 inches because the cut wasn't obvious. 3 inches isn't obvious? What's obvious? Bald? -__-

One whole CNY to think it through. Will only cut after all the prices for the cuts go back down.

Think about it, it might be my chance to try out a new hairstyle. Hmmm... Should I? Should I not? :/

Oh ya, I finally got my CNY clothes. After being nagged for N days! Haha! Sorry, I'm not good at buying clothes :P And btw, shopping alone ain't that bad after all. Just that nobody's there to stop me from spending a fortune :X

Oh really?

I always thought I had plenty of time since I haven't started Uni and all. But then again, when I look at my planner, eh-heh, it looks kinda full.

When friends ask me, "when are you free?" I actually said "any time!". After I check my planner, I'd ask myself:

Whoops!

Parents have been nagging about not spending more time with the cousins. It doesn't look good because they're back and I'm always out. It's like I'm avoiding them. But the thing is, I am not! It's just that I so happen to be out everyday :/ The cousins were really disappointed (somehow) :S

Anyway, photos will be uploaded soon! :D Most probably Friday! After all the events and stuff :)

Although I'm sick but I had a great time talking to them. I feel like I got to know myself better and to know others better :)) 

P/s. I don't mind being anybody's driver, I just feel guilty for using a quarter tank of petrol today :X

P/p/s. It was funny to find people actually posting a status about why so many people are talking about going to a country for N months. But what they didn't observe was something very obvious. Haha! In previous years, nobody noticed a thing about these random stuff (I remember last year's one was the name of an alcoholic drink or something). But this year's one was really eye-catching. xD The Facebook one might be fake, but this is real:

"Going to Australia for 48 months doesn't seem like a bad idea at all :) It'll be awesome!"

All Wrapped Up.

Happiness.

Sorrow.

Remain untold.

Is it me or does this happen really often?

Just when I'm about to leave, I realized that I've been having a lot a lot of fun. With my friends and even people whom I've not known previously. My family and I are getting along fine or even better than ever. I'm having an awesome time.

:)

A friend asked me:

"Would you like us to go with you to the airport? I think it would be better if we not go, it'll be easier for you.."

The thing is, I don't know.

I DO want my friends to be there. It'll make me feel less lonely and all. After all, I'm going there alone.

On the other hand, if my friends are there, I am quite sure I'll cry. Saying goodbye isn't easy. Especially to people who means something in your life.

I suppose "leaving" isn't a good way to say it..?

I think it'll be better as "a vacation" because I will be coming back later this year (I suppose).

If you ask me again how do I feel about going to Australia to further my studies, I will tell you I don't know. The excitement is fading and separation is bugging me.

*thinking about my 2012 resolutions!*

Trying to get myself used to the life of a loner. Lol. Eat alone, walk alone, shop for necessities alone. Because I think that's how my Monash life would be for the first few weeks. Walking to class alone, taking the train alone and studying alone. It'll be super boring for a person as talkative as me! lol!

* * *

Today was another laughing-filled day :D

It was VAD's Refresher Course.

The day wasn't as bad as I expected. Haha! I'm sure I'll miss all of this :')

The Pre-Departure Briefing is tomorrow.

Will be meeting up with Jing Yuan, Olivia and Uzma for dinner :)

Can't wait to meet up with them!

习。惯。

我知道，以后的日子一定很艰苦。

我知晓，再委屈也得咬紧牙关撑下去。

I suppose I've completed all the necessary procedures. I suppose this will be my final decision for the next four years of my life. I've accepted the offer from Monash University in Australia to pursue Bachelor of Pharmacy. I will be leaving in the month of February. It's just weeks away.

I remember, when I was little, all I ever wanted was to study aboard, in a foreign country. Well, you know, when you watch all those American dramas where they make life in Western countries look so interesting and filled with adventure, it makes you feel like living their life! Haha!

I don't know if Pharmacy is what I want, but I know that it will give me a brighter future compared to Biotech/Biochem (my initial goal). And yes, I will take my chance and give it a shot! As the saying goes "Belum try, belum tau; sekali try, kali-kali mau" xD Who can imagine, I might end up with a masters degree in Pharmacy! :P *dreaming!*

Life in Australia is going to be so so hard. Compared to some other students, I am lucky because I have my uncle there. But then again, that might be one of the biggest problem which I'll be facing. I remember this sentence from one of the movies "Sometimes, you just have to suck it all up and keep going"

Next part of life, in a new environment, meeting new people and sharing a totally different culture. I hope I can pull all the bits and pieces together. I'm so excited about what University life has in store for me but at the same time, I am afraid of what I have to go through. Everything will be done - alone. I have to prove to many people that I'm independent enough to take care of myself and to survive this "roller coaster ride". I may not get used to it at the beginning but I'm sure I'll get there someday :)

And so, my new year resolutions! Although they're quite late.

1. Brush up on home skills

2. Learn to be more independent

3. Study harder - get awesome results - and make my parents proud

4. Learn to control my temper. More smiles and to be more patient.

5. Less complains and have more fun.

6. Try to get my own income to at least cover my daily needs.

7. Make full use of my time

8. To lead a healthier lifestyle.

9. To love and appreciate my family more.

10. To love and appreciate my life. Be thankful that I have this chance of a lifetime.

11. Try my best to keep in touch with all my friends. I don't want to lose any of them :')

Counting down: exactly 30 days more.

YOU!

Tan Zhi Han!

Of all the things you're good at, you're good at embarrassing yourself!

Why am I so good at it? I have no idea.

the 11th day of the year and I have a new entry for my "Most Embarrassing Moments" list.

I'm just too good :(

*sigh*

Sorry for making everything look bad :(

But a big thank you to everyone who cared. :]

I hope it'll never happen again.

Foot Drill? Mehh..

First weekend of the year and what did I do?

State Foor Drill Course *shudders!*

Ever since I started joining St John in Form 1, I've always loved foot drill (except for some horrible training moments for competition). And this way, it was worse than all the other trainings. We stood under the hot sun from morning till evening. The hotness, the pricky feeling of the sun's kiss on your face, my goodness, it was too much! >:(

I never liked applying sunblock on my skin because of the greasy feeling but this time, I could not resist, sunblock is a MUST! And I applied not only 1 layer but A FEW layers because I was so sure 1 layer will never be enough! lol!

Besides the time we spent under the hot sun, the time where we all sat down and have our meals together was the best. Because, KPS people are just too crazy! We couldn't stop talking and laughing. I think we're the loudest table among the rest. And I think, we have the least number of participants compared to the rest as well! haha!

Had Kajang Satay after dinner since we're already at Kajang and the restaurant wasn't far away! :)

After satay, we had McD! Haha! It's like a eat-all-you-can marathon!

Sunday morning, thank you Tit Jia and Pek San for accompanying me to KK at 6am. I really appreciate it xD And what I'm glad was that I do not need to drill on the second day, I just stood there under the shade! :D

The only thing I can be proud of from this event is that my word of command was praised by the army while butcher's (an individual who loves to show off) was criticized by the army! Serves you right for treating all of us that way! :P "Tak jelas! Tak yakin! etc."  And he thought he was good! GOMENASAI! (i.e. Command Nasai!) Ah-hahahaha! Big show off!

I have to admit, these 2 days were really fun. Besides the extra shade of over-tanned skin we've got from the training. :) It wasn't as bad as I thought. Haha! I really learned a lot (thought I won't be needing the knowledge. Heh!)

Next up, trooping of colours.

One more layer of burnt skin coming right up! Tit Jia! I wanna borrow your sunblock once more!! Haha!

Few days ago.

Been taking photos using my Nokia phone instead of my Canon. And I was surprised that some of the photos were actually quite nice. For example, the fireworks at the Klang Parade countdown on NYE

Not bad for a Nokia phone camera. Lol. Unlike Sony E, Samsungs and iPhones, Nokia cameras sucks! But this is an exception maybe? Haha!

New Year's Day at Sierramas! :)

His dad purposely tucked in his shorts till the chest for him because his dad said it was CUTE! Haha!

So nerdy looking but ever so cute cousin! :)

The two cousins who's live's a drama. I'm always worn out by them :/

Next day. 

He has his own Ikea chair! lol!

Aren't you too young for coffee?

S-shaped figure! xD

I still can't stop laughing at this picture. The funniest part, she told me to take a picture of her and she POSED for it. It wasn't candid.

Looks totally different from the previous picture eh? Now this is candid xD

Starbucks : Complimentary cake after I've purchased a drink on my birthday month. I forgot what's the name of the cake but it was nice :D

Now.. The secondary camera (i.e. the front one) the photo quality's bad. 

I was too bored at Taylor's. Never thought the student visa would only take me half an hour. I had a few hours extra. Thank goodness I brought my laptop along! Haha! 

Graduation Ceremony on Friday. I wonder how it'd be like? 

Anyways, good luck to my sister. Last year in Kwang Hua! Make the best of it for you'll miss every single day, every single moment - no matter how good or how bad it was :)

Signing off :)