A Month

And so.. I'm back here for a month now. It feels longer though.

A month into the new semester and well.. Mid-semester/Easter break starts tomorrow! My break started two days ago since I've been missing lectures. Hehh. Told my mum that I've been skipping lectures for some time now, I thought she was going to start nagging me about my studies and all, but instead, she said "I trust you, you know what's best". At that moment, I miss her so so much!

I miss the people back at home. When I was home, nothing's happening. Its like life stopped right at that moment. But now that I'm here, there's so much happening, my sister finally going to college, one of the best friend's birthday (unavoidable but still! I MISSED IT! *sadface*), friends hanging out, going back to KH together. Ohgawd, I miss everything! Even the freaking hot weather! (Because its hotter here - for now. Lol)

I have so so so many unfixed cravings until the point it's pretty nerve-wreaking. I miss all those Malaysian Cuisines, Jap food (sushi!), BR ice cream and even all those pastries! Melbourne is 3 hours faster than Malaysia at the moment, so when its almost time for me to go to bed, everyone would have just finished their awesome dinner and start posting pictures on Instagram. Yes, I play with my phone until the very last minute before I sleep, and so I will definitely see those pictures, and start drooling like a dog. The torture! But still, I guess its good to at least see some restaurant food compared to the homecooked food I eat everyday. Haha. Eating out is something really big here.

Okay, now, what struck me the most in the past one month, I guess this'll be a little long. In one month, I was given so much to ponder. First thing - About two weeks ago, a man was found dead on a side lorong right next to the row of houses where we lived in. Murdered or collapsed from illness, we don't know. But this incident haunted us for some time. Another one - Today, the wind was blowing, so strongly, I can feel my table shaking, but I thought I was exaggerating it. Until, I saw this article - Link Here. The strong wind made a brick-wall collapsed and killed two people and injured a third person. This happened in the city, that street, that brick wall, I used to take that route about once a month last year. Third - We're international students.

What I want to say is that, I don't know, all these events, it's all... unexpected. I locked myself at home for a few days after the first incident, the three of us walked to uni together and even came back together. Now, whenever I have to leave the house alone, my senses are really working at their best. Then, the second incident, who would have thought that wind like that could cause a BRICK wall to collapse?! I'd never see it coming. My sincere condolences to the family of the victims.The family of the victims have yet to be contacted, according to the article, why? Maybe because they are international students? Third thing - I'm an international student too. The other day, a friend mentioned something that left me in my thoughts for a while. “一个人来到这里，一个人住，一个人出入，一个人死在街头也没人知道”  What do you think? Just like the two people, they so happened to be at the wrong place, at the wrong time. For international students, nobody knows you, nobody knows what happened, not even your family. I guess, things happen, just like that. 

Counting my blessings. Being thankful that I'm still alive, thankful that I'm still breathing. I guess that's why I am here in Melbourne, to learn to be more independent and to learn to stay safe.

Its Good Friday tomorrow.

Have a great Easter weekend :)

Enjoy the chocolate eggs!

Studying.

That's 100% true for me!

That ONE lecture that I couldn't attend and that ONE topic that I've decided to skip. Life.

Everyday, when I feel like going back to sleep, I tell myself, its either I wake up now and get things done, or I wake up later and regret going back to sleep.

I've skipped all my lectures this week. Don't judge me yet, I listen to all the recordings at home, in my own time, in my own speed. Because, seriously, I'll be fishing in class and I am not the type of person who can sit still for 1 hour in class. So, even if I attended those lectures, I would just have to listen to the recordings all over again. Hence, skipping sounds wise. Lol.

I feel so relieved that I've finished all the lecture recordings at hand already and can finally breathe! Last year, I left it all till the month before the exams and crammed like mad. I really really hope that I do not make the same mistake ever again. I really, really want better results this year. But, I'm really unpredictable, I may be motivated now and totally demotivated the next second. I'm a weirdo, I know. Don't attend lectures but wants good results, you say? Yes, I know its contradicting but hey, I think this method suits me best, thankyouberrymuch.

Studying is a real pain an it can be stressful, but after my summer break, I personally find that it is much better to wake up everyday and say "I have loads to do today" rather than laying in bed and asking myself "what am I gonna do today" and be lifeless for the whole day. 

I'm back here for 3 weeks now. It felt like months though. The weather's changing, its starting to get cooler. DST is ending soon. And then, the sky will look like its 12am when its only 5pm. I really, really hate it when that happens because I have to walk on the streets in the dark. Scary sial.

Okay, don't know what else to say already. I'm here because I need to digest my dinner. I can't think with a filled stomach. Lol. Noticed that I blogged more often this semester? Yes, because last year, I spend my after-meal times like now, to watch dramas instead of blogging about my day. So I end up spending heaps of my study time watching dramas. This year, I persuaded myself that I should blog rather than spend time watching whatever dramas I have and end up wasting 5 hours watching 5 episodes instead of 20 minutes blogging time. Fair trade, more crap here and less time wasted. :D 

I'll be off! Time to submit my first assignment of the year. A  500 word essay based on a 2-minute role play in front of the class. I seriously don't know how did I manage to write 487 words when the 'actors' didn't even speak more than 200 words in total. Mehhh..

Ciao.

Back on track.

Shits happen. I can't deny that I've yet to get over what happened but all I can say is I'll be extra careful and keep my senses up for as long as I'm here. I can't stay at home forever, isn't it?

Finally pulled myself and buckets of courage together and went for a jog. I guess it was something I need. To be honest, this neighbourhood was already pretty creepy before the incident, now, its like a huge jungle with wild tigers roaming around the place. *sighs*

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STPM results were released today. So glad for my friends who achieved what they wanted. Hard work does pay off, eh? :) For those who're not-so-satisfied, I know I am not in any position to ask you to get over it because STPM is a really big thing. I'll just say, don't give up on you studies. Jiayou!

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Week 3 now. A quarter of a semester is over. Lol. I can't believe it actually. Its almost exam time again. I keep telling myself to work harder. I hope that I'll be able to keep up and for once in these four years to get presentable results. For once, let me be determined enough to achieve it.

37.

That's today's temperature here in Melbourne if you're wondering. Have to worry about what I wear everyday because wearing t-shirts and shorts is hot much! -,- Still can sweat as if I just came out from the bath.Also, its too hot to do anything. Its too hot to study and its too early to cook dinner so I shall post random nonsense here. Lol.

1. Proven point - I can study when its cool/cold. Went early to uni today just to attend the morning lectures only to realize that all of them were cancelled. So I had 3 hours to spare before my afternoon classes. To be honest, those were the most productive 3 hours so far. The library was so chilly that it feels just nice to study. *happy face* I shall stay back at uni more often. Anything is better than the heat at home. I'm roasting here!

2. Classes are getting more and more intense. Had 6 hours of lab work yesterday, when I came back, I feel like I could sleep any moment. My brain has been drained of its juices. Andddd... Classes are getting more and more boring. Its only the second week and yet I cannot understand anything that I am studying. Did an experiment yesterday about immunotechniques, we're supposed to write a 5-paged lab report on it but I don't understand anything of what I did yesterday. Research research - more work. 

3. I guess its time to go cook? Lol. I want early dinners but I think the boys prefer late dinners. Whatever, my turn to cook, I decide! Haha!

*random nonsense ends here. thankyouberrymuchforyour2minutesreadingthis*

Desert-Hot.

Can you see the thermometer beside the sun on Tuesday and Wednesday? Even the app feels that this is too much. Lol. I got really really tan lately. *sighs* Hopefully the weather cools down really soon. I don't wanna sweat right after a shower everyday -____-

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Its pretty hard to sell my old textbooks. I was pretty foolish to buy the whole set last year. I didn't even use all of them. Only 5/8 books were really useful. And the price for the books, Idk which is considered too little and which is high. In the end, I realized mine was quite cheap. *rugi business - sien*

Anyway, my first year chemistry textbook costs $130 for a new one, I am selling for $80 (I bought it at $80 last year). And a friend just told me that in Malaysia, the book costs only RM80. Major LOL. Like wert?! Since that book is on demand, next year, can I buy like 5 of that book (weighs maybe 10kg?) from Malaysia and bring it back here and make a profit out of them all! -____-

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First week of uni is OVER! My Flyday came early this week. Only three days worth of classes this week. Awesomeness! But I guess I can't say the same for the next 11 weeks of the semester. I sense a tough semester ahead! I've been back here for like 6 days but I feel like I've been back here for months already. Time is passing too slowwwwww! 

I guess the heat is getting on me. Better stop before I start typing more crap. Ciao!

Life as I know it.

It has been pretty busy these few days since I came back to Melbourne since my aunt and my sister came back with me. Had to stay over at my uncle's house, go out, bring them around and stuff. Fun but definitely tiring. So super duper tiring.

Just settled down and have bills/rents to pay, books to sell and groceries to buy. The independent self comes running back at me. It's tough. And thanks to the super duper hot weather since last Thursday, lack of sleep and dehydration, I look like a zombie now. Worse, the weather's getting hotter and hotter but there is not a single fan in this house. Friggin' hot I can sweat just by sitting and eating. Grrr...

One of my 2013 resolution was to live in a healthier way. I guess I have to put that aside until my sister goes back. No time to put in any effort on my side. Not to mention I'm not entirely done unpacking.

Had my first day of uni today. All the introduction classes. Ohmygawd, it was dead boring. Talking about the dates of the assessments, the deadline of our assignments and all the in-semester projects. All in the first day. Oh well, my goal for this year is to raise my CGPA. I really hope I achieve it :)
Anyway, the only thing I am glad about today is that I've finally met up with my Monash friends after 3 months! Haha! My closest friends, well, we actually live only 40 mins apart in Malaysia and yet we've never even met up once! Too busy with our old friends I suppose. And everyone's still in their holiday mood -,- Enjoying max style. Holidays are really hard to get over eh?

I want my second year here to be an awesome one :)

Again.

NA and NC team from Kwang Hua :)

Again and again, every year, we go through the same thing over and over again. 

Competition, people win, people lose. No matter who's the one who won or the one who lost, everyone gave it their best. NO, don't you dare say we didn't work hard enough, don't you dare say we're lucky, WE tried our best. If our best wasn't enough, fine, at least we tried.

Assholians who treat us like "things" just because we lost, for that ONE time. For what we've won in the past, it's  NOTHING now. For an incident that we didn't want, for a lost that we didn't expect, for the disappointment we had in people like you!

I will not be like you. Yes, I was hurt too when they lost. So what? I do not need them to apologize, I do not need them to feel sad. As long as they enjoyed their trainings, grew up and bonded well during all these, I will be happy. You cannot imagine how sad it is to see them like this. The heartache. I guess you won't know how it feels since you think all this is normal for people who lost. I was there too, you know, I've experienced your coolness, I've experienced it all and I was once disappointed too.

Anyway, it's all in the past now.

And all I want is for them to get over all the disappointment and be hyper like they used to be.