Summer Pain.

Ok, so it's obvious isn't it, about what I wanna say today. Lol.

After 2 months in Malaysia, I stood on a weighing scale for fun, and saw a few kilo decrease in my weight. Sure sounds like a good thing isn't it? But I know its not. Because, when muscles become fats, then, weight is lost. So.. That's what happened to me.

I am now in between sizes instead of an exact size. How to buy clothes now? D: I wonder if I can even fit into all the winter clothings that I bought in December since I got rounder and rounder by day. I guess T-shirts were meant to be my best friends, they are the only clothes I can fit in properly without any damage done to my self-esteem.

Sometimes I really do look forward to go back to Melb because I can jog everyday for as long as I want to. And I can control what I eat - I don't mean skipping meals but at least control the carbs and stuff. Here, I can't jog near my house thanks to all the stray dogs and all the people on motorbikes. And I can't control the food I eat because I can't decide what I eat, I eat what is given to me. I can't say No to Malaysian food can I? 

I keep telling myself I'd do it right when I go back to Melb. I really hope I do. I've never noticed what an unhealthy lifestyle I've been leading until I came back this summer. I'm definitely healthier in Melb because I know I must not fall sick, I must always be healthy. Here, Idk why, that thought never seem to exist. I just eat whatever, whenever.

My promise to myself for when I go back to Melb, even if it's not because of the size, I want to live a healthier live. Exercise more, have a cleaner diet and proper rest. I no longer want to screw my sleeping hours, I want proper sleep (while it lasts)!

A healthier lifestyle! #Resolution2013 :)